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TIMEI enjoy going and seeing the Director--having a scotch or a beer, whatever he offers---some good "home cooked" food; dinner his cooks make --- after a little conversation and shared food & drinks, smoking a cigarette ---then I feel better---I'm not as frantic or urgent ---I don't want to grab the night and choke the living shit out of it; kick it and bash it around just to try and get as much out of it as I can, as the clock ticks---Instead I look back I sit back, and then, I comeback to my room and write--I look around I sit down I relax I see the possibilities and I go for them--slowly--carefully--systematically -- after that, after I start and I begin and I move foreward-- that urge to strangle and choke myself get tangled up in it all, isn't there... and I just ease right past all that kind of nonsense then have something when I'm finished Isn't there more?
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© Marie A. Kazalia